Illuminating the way to utopia for individuals, organizations, and the rest of society.
Re-Awakening
by Dr. Lisa Ferguson
DRAFT
September 19, 2025
Copyright © 2025 by Illuminutopia, LLC
Picture of Lily (me) & Ody taken at West Fork Trail in Sedona, AZ on Thanksgiving 2011
Prologue
How did my life, which was abundant, full of love, achievements, and a promise of an even brighter future, become one of such despair that I seriously considered and even attempted suicide, something I thought I would NEVER do?! Years of mostly suffering mentally, emotionally, and physically brought me to my knees.
Love was and is all that really matters to me – of my friends and family and my work bringing light to the world. When I was about 18 years old, I decided that what I really wanted out of life was to find the man of my dreams to share my life with and to illuminate the way to utopia for individuals, organizations, and the rest of society (though I hadn’t verbalized my goal in life so clearly back then).
About 18 years ago, I was living the life of my dreams with respect to my work. I was also blessed with the mutual love and support of friends and family. I had earned three university degrees, culminating with a PhD. For a decade, I had enjoyed being a successful business professor (of operations management) full-time. I then became the apprentice to a best-selling author and business guru named Dr. Eli Goldratt. I was living in the city I most wanted to live in (Sedona, Arizona), with a beautiful condominium home that I rented, amazing views of nature, with great hiking trails nearby, all the while traveling the world.
My physical health started deteriorating several months after I began my apprenticeship with Eli in June 2007. For the next three months, my flu-like symptoms continued despite the support of several health practitioners and even prescription medication. In January 2008, Eli and I agreed to significantly reduce my travel schedule because of a further decline in my health. Six months after that, a mutual misunderstanding and conflicting approaches to life led to the end of my apprenticeship, which had already resulted in my acceptance of his offer of employment to work with him for the rest of his life (to write, train, and manage an army of writers).
Mentally and emotionally, I felt distraught because of a betrayal of trust and lack of integrity, in addition to dealing with multiple cancer scares (both skin and breast) during and following that time. Six months into my apprenticeship, I began to suffer from severe mood and energy swings. After it ended, I struggled financially while starting a new business named IlluminutopiaSM, including dealing with others lacking integrity to honor agreements, all the while unable to work more than half the time (for many years) because of my continuing health issues. In addition, serious family illnesses (including deaths) and the time and energy spent supporting them added a significant burden to my life.
It wasn’t until FIVE years later that I was finally correctly diagnosed as suffering from adrenal fatigue, a physical illness in which the adrenal glands do not function properly because of continuous, severe stress for a long period of time. These glands significantly affect moods and energy levels. Finding the cure and implementing it effectively took several more years. One of the reasons for the delay was my need to overcome the controlling and abusive behavior of those closest to me. I had lost my power during that time because eventually I had become broke and homeless, without a car. However, I was still unwilling to compromise my integrity or put myself before others. I continued to be a loving, kind being who showed tremendous loyalty and support to those I loved, regardless of how they treated me.
Years later, I finally did start putting my health and needs first. In addition, I decided several years ago to end all unhealthy relationships in my life. Usually, I did so by kindly speaking my truth, letting them know I loved them and wishing them the best. I am not claiming to be perfect. I have made mistakes in my life that I have tried my best to learn from and never repeat.
In November 2009, I finally found my one true love. The day I met Dr. Michel Delon, my body and soul knew that I was home and safe for the first time in my life (at the age of 43). Yet, we both didn’t consciously become aware of our love connection until about six months later. Over at least the next decade, we shared some magical moments of love together, interspersed with far too much suffering and numerous separations as we both struggled to re-awaken to who we really are (and both deal with multiple critical issues in our families). Our magical life together can only be achieved once we are BOTH fully healed mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually from the damage we have sustained in this lifetime and others as well.
The continued psychological impact of suffering for so long led me multiple times to strongly feel that I wanted my life to end. Both Ody (my nickname for Michel) and Eli told me that they knew I would NEVER commit suicide. I realized they were right given my significant love of life. Eli told me that if I passed all his writing tests that I would be able to do anything I wanted in life because my ability to think and communicate would be even higher and continue to increase exponentially. Despite my levels of improving logic, intuition, and emotion, I have not yet been able to fully achieve the meaningful life I desire.
My misery continued when I almost died on September 29, 2017, due to accidental methamphetamine poisoning though I was never a drug user. Through my efforts and the support of Archangel Michael and his team, I was able to come back to finish this life. I had an amazing near-death experience that night that I will never forget.
Archangel Layla narrates my story and that of my beloved twin soul, Odysseus. She presents Divine insights regarding our processes of re-awakening or becoming once again our fully authentic immortal selves in human form. The story is presented as a memoir in various chapters by me (as Lily, the nickname given to me by my beloved Ody), along with other chapters in which Layla explains the thoughts, feelings, and actions of Ody, as well as the Divine perspective on what was happening with me and us.
Twin souls are a rare and specific case of soulmates who were once one soul that divided into two souls who are separated in human form, while still forever maintaining their connection. Twin souls typically struggle more than soulmates to re-awaken and heal each other (due to a long history of karmic baggage from numerous past lives). LilOdy’s global mission is to bring Light and Unconditional Love to the world to assist in manifesting Heaven on Earth (a New Golden Age). Ody and I chose to experience very difficult lives since we are ancient souls who needed greater challenges to continue our ascension process and fulfill our missions (both global and personal) in this life.
Unfortunately, Ody and I haven’t been in a relationship for over four years now. He has been unwilling or unable to do what is necessary for us to be together in harmony. Also, I am responsible for doing my part. I am not placing blame on anyone, but rather pointing out that it takes two people working together effectively to have a relationship that is truly based on unconditional/universal Love, Light, harmony, peace, and other attributes of higher consciousness. I have chosen to truly love and heal myself and open my heart to have a great life alone. Hopefully, Divine timing, along with Ody’s choice to do what is needed to complete his healing will bring us together to finally live the magical life we always dreamed of.
The purpose of this book is to share my story and how I was able to heal myself (mentally, emotionally, physically, and spiritually) and re-awaken in the fifth dimension (5D). In 5D, polarities of Light and dark no longer exist. All suffering on Earth ends and Heaven on Earth begins. At any moment, any of us can awaken in 5D if we have been diligently working on doing so. We must surrender our ego to our higher selves to ascend. It is my hope that sharing my story will provide inspiration and guidance to others about how to progress on their own individual healing and re-awakening journeys.
IMPORTANT NOTE: As you read this writing, you will feel a variety of emotions ranging from Love (positivity’s) to fear (negativity’s). Not everyone will laugh, cry, smile, or feel anger when reading the same part of the story. It depends on their personal experiences. I feel compelled to point out that I am NOT judging anyone in this true story. I feel love, compassion, and empathy toward all humans (and all life for that matter). I have forgiven everyone, including myself. I understand that hurt people hurt people. I do not take it personally. However, that doesn’t mean that I need to interact closely with those who aren’t focused on mutual love, respect, and trust. I have chosen to focus on self-love, with five circles around me of those I feel closest to and choose to directly interact with. My inner circle includes trusted friends and family who are aligned with higher consciousness.
Dedication
This book is dedicated first and foremost to my beloved Ody (my twin soul), without whose Divine love and support this writing may never have seen the Light of day. Next, to Eli, my friend and former mentor, who bestowed upon me the great honor of being his apprentice. To my great parents, Reginald Ferguson and Nelda Vicars, whose love and support enabled me to pursue my dreams. Even the sky is NOT the limit!!! Those four people, in addition to my dear friends, and other loved ones, inspired and challenged me to NEVER give up on my dreams and do what was necessary to become my fully authentic self. Sending love and gratitude to all who have been on this journey with me.
I am sharing freely with the public the details of my journey, along with lessons learned, while writing my book, through the Illuminutopia blog (https://illuminutopia.blog/), our YouTube channel (https://www.youtube.com/@illuminutopia5513) videos and podcasts, our public Facebook group (Illuminutopia Spirit), my LinkedIn account (https://www.linkedin.com/in/tocmentor/), as well as our website(s), (https://illuminutopia.org and .com), which are currently under construction). A video of my reading of the book sample, along with inserted comments is now available on our Illuminutopia YouTube channel: https://lnkd.in/g2XgcDSg
Illuminutopia has also shared a GoFundMe campaign to raise money to support our efforts to illuminate the way to utopia for individuals, organizations, and the rest of society. The write-up of the campaign explains more of my history and lessons learned. To view it, go to www.gofundme.com/7d9new-illuminutopias-human-transformation-project. Please spread the word about Illuminutopia so that we can faster and more effectively achieve our goal. Thank you!
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